Assorted Emotions

I am that song that never was sung, The road that ends in nowhere. The breeze that cannot be captured in a jar, The wave who doesn't know what boundaries are. The first bloom of spring hidden in the forest. The first drop of rain to touch your face. The ray of sunshine that breaks through dark clouds, I am the green in every leaf in the woods. I live by no rules, I set no expectations. I laugh unchecked, I cry unashamedly. I dance with the wind to the rhythm of the universe, Where life ends my journey begins. And its a never ending journey, It'll go on forever and more. I am in every bit of existence, I am every soul.

There is no sound when trust is broken, No mark when life's impugned. No anguished cry when there's deep hurt. Though the heart bleeds there is no wound. I am a master of deception, I deal in true lies. I carry with me uncountable faces and emotions. Some that are dark and unbidden, Some bright just like sunlight. And I take part in this charade, this great unorganised chaos, I know it as moments, some call it life. Unknowingly I become what I fear, Another speck of dust in the great desert of time. Mocking myself for sounding hollow, Talking big but swimming shallow. I carry the ghosts of other people's wishes with me. My own dreams are hidden somewhere in a burrow. They quake and tremble at the thought of me finding them, Coz they know I'll drag them to the slaughter house of reality. As life gets snuffed out of them one by one, In my most sanest and logical choice, I'll know insanity.

Grow up, be someone Carve your own identity. Trod on an undiscovered path. Be the master of your destiny. And I started out, Hearing all that they said. Walking on unknown roads, The wind my mate, the earth my bed. But you can't go this way, Its too dangerous you see. Nah, that one's uncharted, Why don't u just let it be. And so I know that my journey, Ended even before it had begun. It was the night refusing to go, Its identity threatened by the sun. I don't wanna be someone, I just want to be me. And how will I be able to do that? Till I don't break the chains that bind me. So I say to y'all now, It aint freedom till u get to choose. And u say u've got it already, But this one with conditions attached I refuse.

Clear, Sharp and Fast, That's how the pain hits me. I have nowhere to hide. Nothing to shield myself from it. Don't run away for I am everywhere. It says and mocks me. I feel it crushing my soul, grasping my mind in its stranglehold. Motionless I stand, like the tree which is in the tornadoes path, Wantiing to run away but pinned to the earth, by the very roots that gave it life. The silence inside me is defeaning. It drowns the noises of the outside world. It's so normal to smile outside when I'm torn inside. Guess I'm already dead.

The sea beckons me with open arms, the green feels just the right shade The starry sky is like the perfect blanket, Tonite, i'll sleep like I never intend to wake. But then again the morning would bring Different hues and colors to the water, The sand will shimmer like the finest silver, and the horizon will be like a shimmering golden cover. I gather all these sights and sounds, Have locked them in my memory, Coz when I return to the concrete jungle i know as life, These will be things that'll bring a smile to me. The sea, the sun, the stars the sand, A perfect world, a different land I know that I'll come back to these... They'll always be here, waiting for me..

I know now how it feels, To be trapped forever in a void. However loud you scream, no one's listening, There is not a soul around. I cry out in anguish, Trying to break the walls with my bare hands. Then suddenly realize that it's no good, The only thing that falls to the ground is my blood. I see shadows overhead, Circling and jeering me. I try to run and hide somewhere, Not knowing darkness is their ally. I am but a shadow myself now, Tired of running from the pain and my past. So I stop and wait for the end to come. I have reached my destination, at last. Now there is an absolution, a realisation. That nothing's permanent except pain and loss. All the smiles and laughter around me are fake. People just cannot shatter the illusion, that's all.