Assorted Emotions

So many tears I've cried, my eyes are dry, they won't cry no more. So much pain, I thought I'd die, but my heart's turned to stone. You walked away, without a word, I felt lost and abandoned. Now I don't want to find the way back, this is where I belong. I don't need someone to tell me things will be fine, I don't want a shoulder to lean on. I know I'm lonely, but that's what everyone is. I've seen beyond that illusion, that's all. So, don't you worry, I'm back on my feet Ready to take on the world, yes, all by myself I ain't afraid of pain or hurt anymore, coz strangers cant hurt you , atleast not more than friends.

Is it an angel or a demon? Which is the face i carried today ? Did i stop to think about it or have i stopped thinking anyway. Have i become so good at white lies or is there no truth left in the world? Do i have the guts to question myself or is the answer something i dont wanna hear? Why is pain not painful anymore why is my laugh hollow? Is it just me or has the world gone mad, living like there is no tomorrow. I look out the window and see , faint traces of blue in a dull sky. Its almost as if it cant decide the colour to be in and does not want to know why. And so i get back to thinking who it was i saw today. Was it an angel or a demon in the mirror or am i just human like they say ?

The night came and enveloped my world. It was like falling into a deep dark abyss. It welcomed me with open arms. No questions or explanations needed. I found peace in every moment, Could hear my heart beating in the silence. Unflinching, I could think about what was on my mind. I did not need to fear the harsh questioning glare of the sun. Then the soft moonlight caressed me, It was like the gentle reassuring touch of a long lost friend. It showed me the world in a totally different way. Everything was aglow like a pearl. The night is my ally and support now. I can't understand why people fear the dark. It's only when you don't have a light to guide you, That the way you find is truly yours.

Time stood still from d moment I saw you And I woke up here today to see me beside you. Where did all the seasons go,has the world stopped spinning? How could I have lived so long, my life is just beginning...beside you. You are no doubt an angel sent from heaven. And I know how much they must be missing you. The love you gave me knew no boundaries I would not have know the true meaning of it without you. I know nothing else but you and me now. Eternity beckons and love calls out. I am living my most beautiful dream. And that dream is no one besides you. So honey just hold my hand forever I need you more than you think I do. I've found a reason to live and love now It was just a meaningless existence without you.

Did not know that i was addicted no idea, when or how but i miss my deathstick... I need my smoke, and please make it now. Funny how I play with death everyday taste it, breathe it and blow it away. I laugh at all the d ppl who warn me.. what the heck, u live only once, is my normal retort, per se. So, roll down the window,light up another one The shortening of my life by another 6 minutes has begun. But wait, i made a vow to kick the habit And if its the last thing I do, I will. Dammit!